My 2006
Goodbye 2006, Hello 2007. I am looking forward to the new year.
In 2006, I realized I have major mental problems that I couldn’t cope with on my own. I accepted my doctors advice and started medication. Now my head isn’t foggy and I have clear thoughts.
I became a little closer to my siblings. Which is good and bad. We are adult children of divorce and are divided with the parents. But we chose not to disclose our relationship to the parents. It’s our choice. I have learned that my hubby loves me regardless of how crazy I am. I have learned that old wounds never heal, they just scab over until some crazy (crazier than I am) bitch opens it back up. Hence the mild breakdown. I have learned to let my children go and allow them to grow up. I have learned to accept the things that can not be changed.
In 2007, I will live for myself. I will not be bothered by what is done and over with. I will learn to tell people no. I am not going to be burdened with everyone elses problems. I have enough of my own. I will love my kids more and be a better mother. There’s so much more, but I don’t want to jinx myself.
I will use this blog as a way to vent. None of my family knows of its existence. I done this for a reason. I need it. But I hope that one year from now, I can truly say, I am the person I want to be.
Happy 2007 Everyone.
~Sassy~
Happy New Year
Here’s wishing everyone out there a Very Happy New Year!!
Lots of Love,
~Sassy~
At Peace
I can sit here without a doubt and say I am at peace with Saddam Husseins death. I don’t normally give a rat’s ass, but here’s a piece of shit that took innocent people’s lives. And never blinked an eye. However, the world will really be no different whether or not he’s alive or dead. We will still be fighting a war against terrorist. We will still have innocent lives taken every single moment of the day. I personally do not support the War in Iraq. I never have. But I support the troops doing their jobs every day. Putting themselves on the line so others can have freedom. I normally don’t talk politics. I think of John Lennon’s song “Imagine” and wonder if there will ever be a day where the world is at peace. I doubt I nor my own children for the fact will ever see it. But just imagine.
It’s a sucky ass rainy day. I normally love rainy days. Except when the kids are out of school. Then I have to hear I am bored for one million plus times. But at this present moment in time, they are all enjoying watching Superman. They have never seen the first one and I think they are all sitting watching the last episode. I am hearing Jelly Bean question hubby about this and that and he’s having to go back and explain it to her. Shorty is left the room tired of all his superhero talk and retreated to my room to watch cartoons.
I think later tonight I will sit down and compile a list of things that happened over 2006. Just to remind myself in a year how far I have become. I am hoping to learn alot from this past year and my battle with depression and move forward with my life. Stop trying to please everyone else. I think that 31 will agree with me. That and lots of medication. LOL
~Sassy~
Last SPF of 2006!!!!
Brought to us by Kristine and Hubby Shaun at Random and Odd
1. Something that you won’t have in your home in 2007
**Sadly, these adorable puppies won’t be here in 2007, theyare all going to find good homes.
2. Something random and odd
**Shorty’s new Carebear. It is supposed to smell like Chocolate. He looks a little creepy looking the other direction. Very Odd!!
3. 07…..pick seven of something. Or with the number 7. Whatever. Be creative.
**Ok,I got creative during supper and chose 7 dinner rolls.
And there’s my first and last SPF of 2006. Did you play along?
Simply Beautiful
I have sat all day thinking about the future. Thinking about the things I want to change. I am not going to call them resolutions because I will for sure not try to achieve anything. I am setting goals for myself for 2007. I want to look back in a year and say hey I did that.
I want to have a productive life. I want to spend more quality time with my kids. I want to live my life for myself and not worry about others. To hell with them. I have a family that loves me. I don’t need your approval to be happy. I don’t need your love, I have enough right now. I am an adult and will not answer to anyone else or wonder what they think.
I will not cry anymore for those who have abandoned me and sit and wonder what I have done wrong. I refuse to be beneath anyone. I am the same person I was 15 years ago. Just a little more wiser and a little bit older.
I will seek therapy this year. To cope with the demons that haunt me every day of my life. My past is just that. It’s the past, but it still hurts here in the present. I will learn to say NO. No more using me as a doormat to wipe your shitty feet on.
I will try (notice I said try) to become more organized. I will throw out some of the useless shit that I keep around and swear it will get used one day. I will do it.
I will show my hubby everyday that I do love him and cherish him. I will be a better wife. I owe it to him after all the bullshit I have put him through during the last 13 years.
And to me the most important. I want to be a happy person. I don’t want to keep pretending everything is just fine, when in fact its not. I can hide it pretty well. I want my heart to be whole and filled with the things that matter. Not the shit I can’t change or the shit I have no control over.
I am looking forward to the new year. I am looking forward to meeting the new me. How about you what are your plans for 2007?
~Sassy~
Shoe Tying 101
Someone save me. The little shoelace bunnies are dancing all around me.
Shorty who is now 5 1/2 still doesn’t know how to tie her shoes. I know I’m a lazy parent, but I have tried and tried endlessly to teach my stubborn child how to tie her shoes. She gets so frustrated and starts whining and bitching and complaining that eventually we give in and tell her to take a break and it never fails that that is where the lesson ends for several days. Hell it’s easier to tie her shoes and get on with life. But I do realize that I can’t continue to tie her shoes forever. Who’s 40 and still has their shoes tied by their mommy. Well Shorty would if I continue to let her. But good grief, I am only human and so much whining makes me insane. I thought I had done things different the third time around. I made her clean up after herself instead of me doing it. I had her doing chores at an early age. So how come teaching her to tie her shoes has become the death of all that was good. I vow as the internet is my witness this child will know how to tie her own damn shoes before she graduates Kindergarten.
My children hit pay dirt yesterday. It was like the scene of a movie. They were all outside, enjoying the nice weather and relieving my nerves for a bit when Jelly Bean come running in and to her daddy. I wasn’t paying attention. I guess because if someone was hurt she would have came to me after all. Anyways. She goes back out, comes back in. This continues for about 10 minutes. I’m beginning to think what the hell and decide to question her before her next big escape out the front door. As it turns out, my kids had found a small amount of treasure in our yard. Someone had lost some money and my kids found it. It was in the leaves by the fence. I’m guessing it was from some asshole hopping the fence to hunt on the private land behind us. My kids looted off with 7 Bucks. But hey to kids that’s a million plus. So to the asswipe who hopped the fence, my kids thank you for your generosity. They enjoyed a special trip to the store.
Other than that, not much happens here in no where land. Unless you listen to the police scanner.
~Sassy~
Calling all cooks.
Morning folks. Well hell it’s not morning anymore. I tried. Anyways, I added a new page to the site. It’s for recipes. I love to cook and thought about having a place to share recipes. So if you have any you want to contribute, just email it to me (webmaster@thesassysoutherner.com) and I will add it. Keep checking in as I will add more recipes throughout the day.
~Sassy~
P.s. The page is on the right sidebar under the calendar.
I’d hit it
Tonight the kids and I was flipping through the channels and I stopped on CNN. Then I was in awe of what I saw. Bon Jovi. Growing up and 80’s kid, I loved the “hair bands”. But there’s something about Bon Jovi that still makes me weak in the knees. Hell yeah I hit that and go back for seconds.
He is still just as gorgeous as he was back in the 80’s and 90’s. He is still the shit. He can sing and melt any girls heart.
Wild Child asked me who he was. I looked at her with such disbelief that she hadn’t a clue who this icon was. Then she had the nerve to say, I bet he was big a long time ago when you was growing up. Well Duh, but hell I ain’t that old. I grew up in a household of listening to Queen, Heart, CCR and shit like that. I still listen to it now. As far as I am concerned the 80’s produced the best music there is. Well I’m off to my fantasy world. Just don’t wake me til after the good parts is done. (And to think I’m a 31 year old chick who still lusts over Bon Jovi like an immature school girl. Oh fuckin’ well. LOL
~Sassy~
Look Whose Talkin’