**Edit** This is a beautiful note from my daughter while I prepared supper. Isn’t she sweet?
I want you to know that you are amazing, and I love you to death!! So i made a song for you.Here it is,
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I just wanted to tell you that i love you to death and that you mean the world to me,and i will be hurt if something happened to you.I hope you write back to me on yahoo or something .Well i will talk to you later.
Sincerely,
Stephanie AKA Wild Child
To do it again
When I got married, I did it the typical southern way. I went to the courthouse. It really wasn’t my first choice, but at the time it was my only choice. I would love to renew my wedding vows in a very extravagant way. I would love to take a Family or group holiday in Spain and get married in a nice mansion. That would be so awesome. Hey with the money I’m gonna save from not smoking, I might be able to afford a cool trip like that.
I’d love to be able to renew my vows in a garden at night time. With a full moon casting over us. With candles flickering in the breeze and our shadows bearing witness to our vows. The breeze gently blowing the sweet scent of the flowers towards my face. Man what I wouldn’t give for a second chance to do it right.
We made a promise when we got married to renew our vows at 10 years. Well we are a few years late. I want to wear the nice dress, have my sweet husband in a tuxedo and my girls as my bridesmaids. I want to hold a bouquet of flowers in my hand and have a song playing softly in the background. Just little simple things that I missed out on with the first go around.
I got to thinking yesterday. Well you’re sick and can’t smoke without choking to death, why not quit. Sounds easy enough. Well I attempted yesterday to smoke a few and couldn’t. That decision was made pretty easy. But will it really be that easy to quit? I have been smoking for a long time. I have wanted to quit for some time now, but my will power wasn’t strong enough.
I started smoking because all my friends were doing it. Yeah stupid on my part. I was young and stupid. Now they are my crutch to make it through the day. But why? I use them as an excuse when I’m upset or nervous that I have to have one. But do I really?
I watched my Grandmother die from emphysema. Now my mother and Aunt have it. Do I really want to die that way? Of course not. I watched my strong grandmother become bed ridden because walking was simply too much for her. But yet, I’m following her down the same path.
However in my quest to stop smoking, I’m deathly terrified I will gain weight beyond my control. I know that it happens. But maybe with my new found freedom I will be able to exercise and hopefully not balloon up. Maybe getting this sick was a wake up call. And I believe that I am finally ready to answer it. Wish me luck on my journey. I know it won’t be easy. But I feel that it’s something that I must do. I am ready. Is there any advice from people out there that has quit? What have you done to quit successfully? Will I be a raging bitch in a couple of days? Or am I choosing the right time since I’m sick? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.. Here I go.. I’m throwing out everything!!
Buddy University
Have you heard of Buddy University? No, then you’re out of the loop. BuddyUniversity is a networking portal for college students. It’s a strong, safe secure way to meet other students without jeopardizing your safety. The networks only allow students with a valid college email address
What I like about this social network is that you have to have a valid and current college email address. A .EDU email in order to gain access. No valid address no access. With so many online predators surfing places like Myspace or Facebook, this makes me feel somewhat better about social networking.
BuddyUniversity offers many different aspects to their community. There’s a bookstore, a forum, classified, and college news. You can hook up online for study dates and pass around vital information needed.
One of the forums that I belong to has a few college kids that would be interested in a place like this. I think it’s a great idea for a place for college kids to get together and have their own private place separate from the rest of the internet and free from old sick perverts looking for young college kids. In fact, we need more safe places for our kids to visit online.
Howdy all. Hacking Hannah here. LOL. I’m feeling much better than I have been. I can’t say the same for my extremely snotty hubby. He’s so stopped up. I tried to give him two cold pills a few minutes ago and he resisted like a 2 year old. Typical. I told him I was just trying to help his snotty ass and to chill out. I’m sure he will soon be in the bed. Well at least I hope. There can only be one whiny sick person in the house at a time and that’s me. Not that that really matters around here ya know.
I was going to recruit the older two to do a video with me tonight but wouldn’t you know it, they are conked out. Jelly Bean said her throat was hurting so she took a Benadryl and went to bed. Not looking good. I sure hope that everyone is over this shit by fall break in two weeks. My mother is getting sick too and I haven’t seen her in almost a month, yet she told me her getting sick was my fault. Uh huh. I told her nice try. Well I’m hungry as a mule and I’m fixing to go fix me a snack.. maybe chocolate pudding or a bowl of stew. Damn steroids.
Their Futures
I’m proud of my kids. They are thinking about the future. They know that we insist that they go to college. Wild Child was so excited Wednesday because a community college came by and presented them with some applications. Yes in the 6th grade. The thing is, they only accept 5 kids out of the whole 6th grade to participate in the program. They come out a few times a month and work with the kids and give them a basic idea of what college is like. This is good because Wild Child wants to go to college and major in some kind of science degree. She told me she hopes to find a cure for cancer.
Jelly Bean wants to be a Vet. That would suit her just fine because she has a love for all kinds of animals. They have asked me about different colleges and schools. I prefer them to stay close, but I do want them to do what’s best for themselves and for their futures. But they are still young and may decide to change their career goals. They may want to attend a place like http://gibbseducation.com or a University. Either way I will be proud of them. I think it’s important for my kids to go to college and make a good life for themselves. That’s something their Daddy and I didn’t do and we have had so many hardships that we don’t want them to have to endure.
I have tried my damnedest to contain my germs to my little sphere around me. Undoubtedly hubby got too close to my sphere and is now sick. So he’s sleeping sitting up to keep his nose from stopping up and wreaking havoc on his sleep. Been there, done that, moved on. I’m feeling a lot better from the throat up. My lungs are so sore from all the non productive coughing I have been doing. Damn it hurts. Wild Child got up not feeling so hot, but today was Picture Day at school and a freakin’ YoYo show. So she was determined to go to school.
Today I am gonna put on a big pot of Chicken Stew. Mmmm that’s good on a cool day and a very nasty sickness. That will be the first real meal I have had in days. I drank some beef broth last night. Wasn’t exactly the best meal, but I really didn’t want anything solid. However I’m so hungry this morning I could eat the ass end out of a goat. I think I may attempt some oatmeal or soup or something. I haven’t done housework in days. My hubby and kids have. They are so sweet. Wild Child came to my bedroom yesterday and gave me a shoulder massage since I am so sore and asked me if I wanted her to cook me something. I love the kid, but I don’t trust her cooking.
Well I’m off to hack this last lung up. If anyone has any good lungs they want to donate, send them my way. My back sure would appreciate it today.
Tonight (knock on wood) I’m feeling much better. I still have this horrible cough, but sucking down cough medicine is helping that out. Still taking the antibotics so I’m on the mend. About time. I hate being this sick. I made a video that I will be uploading soon. I’m finally getting hungry. That’s a good sign I guess.
So as you can tell from the video..I’m still kickin’ barely though. I swear I have sneezed so much the end of my nose is raw. I managed to cut it while blowing. That’s really sad isn’t it. I made two of them. I will upload the other one tomorrow. It’s funny. The dogs scared me and I walked into a spider web *shudder*. Hope all is well with everyone out there!!
Last night I was all prepared to show you another bit of the country life. I had my camera all set to shoot some coyotes running. Well I cut loose coughing and scared them away. Just my luck. I’m feeling a little better. I’m just really congested. I have been taking antibotics to keep it out of my chest. I hate having bronchitis and it’s trying to turn into that. Last night was a shitty sleep for me. I kept waking up gasping for breath. I finally got up and used the breathing machine thingy. This is twice this year I have been this sick.
Funny thing about the antibotics. I took one yesterday and thought I read to take them 1 time a day. Uh no. I was supposed to take them 4 times a day. Leave it to me to read it all wrong. But I am going back to bed for a little bit. I feel bad, but not as bad as yesterday. I’m gonna kick this colds ass. Thanks for all the well wishes.
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