How can she?
Warning this is going to be a ranting post.
How in the hell can a mother let her own child lay in a hospital bed and not go see her? How in the hell can that same mother tell her daughter, who was just diagnosed with a life altering disease, that now she (the daughter) knows how she feels?
Simple, my mother can. She’s selfish. She’s unworthy of anyone’s love or affection. As a mother, I can not fathom one of my children being in the hospital and me not being by their side. Even if hell were to freeze over, it wouldn’t be enough to keep me away. Yet, my mother, who has never chose her own children, chose not to see her. Her own daughter. Her own flesh and blood. Damn her.
It breaks my heart to hear my sister cry on the phone because she so wanted our mother to visit her. It pisses me off beyond belief.
I know our mother is never going to change. Even though I know this, somewhere in my heart, I carry with me a shred of a thread hoping that she will once be the mother we want and deserve. I just wished for once in her life, the world did not revolve around her and she could be there for her daughter who needs her now more than ever. Will it ever happen? I highly doubt it. But what comes around goes around right?
